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Overwhelmed.

Today I spent a couple hours in my room thinking, praying, reading and meditating on Scripture, and just focusing on Christ alone. It was refreshing. It left me feeling loved, yes, loved with the unfailing love of my Savior. And it left me feeling overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by His goodness and mercy. Overwhelmed by His care for me in even the littlest details of my life. Overwhelmed by how He works all things together for good. Overwhelmed by the amazing Godly friends He has brought into my life. Overwhelmed by the job He has provided for me and the passion He has given me for nursing and the NICU babies. Overwhelmed…because I am not deserving of any of this. Overwhelmed…simply because God has given me this and so much more anyway!

So…for a little update on day to day life. I have officially been on night shift at the hospital for two weeks now and I keep hoping it will get easier to sleep during the day. So far it seems, either the lawnmover, kids screaming at the pool, or the neighbors upstairs have been successful at waking me up before I really wanted to wake up! 😦  Otherwise, I am enjoying the night shift. It is so much more conducive to learning because there is not near the chaos and people around as there is during the day shift. I’m enjoying slowly getting to know other nurses on the unit. I’m definitely just enjoying taking care of the wee little ones too…and falling in love with most of them!

I’m also seeing a huge but exciting challenge ahead of me. I’m working on a unit that staffs over 200 nurses, many nurse practitioners, residents, fellows, and drs., plus the countless parents and families that I will become aquainted with. Many (perhaps most…) of these people probably do not have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. They do not know true love, peace, and joy that can only come from Christ alone. So…what a great mission field! What great opportunities God has set before me! I’m already feeling a burden, a desire, and a passion to share how God has changed my life! I look forward to the days, weeks, months ahead…I look forward to being used by God…I look forward to seeing God work in amazing ways. He always does! He always will!

The past few days, I have been able to visit with a couple of the sweetest of friends. Friends who live far away and so hugs can only be through the phone! Nevertheless, I have been hugely encouraged by them. They have remained an inspiration and joy. I can share anything and everything with them and I know even if they don’t completely understand, they feel whatever I feel right along with me. We think alike. We have the same ideals, goals, and morals. We are kindred spirits. There is nothing quite as sweet as such sisters in the Lord! Love you girlies!! 🙂

We sang this song, In Christ Alone,  in church this morning and truly the words describe what I am feeling tonight.

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

I believe that says it all. Goodnight.

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Anything and everything

Okay…so yah, it’s been forever and a day again since I’ve blogged about my life in the city. Maybe that’s simply because there’s sooo much to do in the city…work, friends, shopping, swimming, late nights at the hot tub, adventures at the lake, dinner dates at great places…. But unfortunately, it seems that almost everything fun costs money! So I’m glad for a good job that I not only love but that brings in some good bucks!

This week I must officially soar with my own two wings at work. No nurse with be right beside me every step of the way but there will always be other nurses just a hop and a skip away should I need help, advice, or simply some reassurance. Wednesday night will be my first night when I have MY VERY OWN babies to take care of, to keep alive, and to show love. Although I must admit I’m a little bit nervous and unsure, I am also very excited. I’m excited to develop my own routine, as all nurses do. I’m excited because this is another step in fulfilling my dream of becoming a real NICU nurse! I’m excited to get to know my own babies and their families. I’m excited to get to know the nurses, Drs., and other staff on the unit. I’m excited just to stand on my own two feet and hopefully not sink…?! 🙂

I have been on the 12 hour night shifts for one week now. I haven’t found it hard to work during the typical sleeping hours, but I have found it difficult to sleep during the day. It invariably seems that the lawn mower is running outside my apartment window or kids are screaming at the pool or there are stomping footsteps coming from my ceiling. I’m realizing it’s not nearly as easy to sleep during the day in the city than it was when I was at home in my secluded basement bedroom. 😦 But I suppose I shall manage…I really have no choice but to hope and pray to get onto the day shift as soon as possible! In the meantime though, I do really like the night shift crew and the pace is much slower and quieter. Sometimes the quietness at night is not such a good thing though…especially about 3:00-4:00 am when my lack of sleep is starting to catch up with me.

I have gotten to know some really great co-workers already and we’ve been able to hang out some at the pool or at one of our favorite places in Edmond…ORANGE TREE (frozen yogurt). We had a class day today at work and met there late this afternoon for a sweet treat!

I’ve been enjoying running outside much lately mostly around the neighborhood streets close by. But for the first time, Saturday I got up bright and early 🙂 and went out to Lake Hefner by 7:00 am and ran around the Lake! It was sooo incredibly beautiful. I loved it! I wish I could go out there everyday…but it does take extra time to drive there and such and then actually run my 5-6 miles. So…I don’t think it’s quite doable everyday but certainly I’m going to make every effort to get out there more often. Like TOMORROW morning! I can’t wait!

Last week, I finally finished most of the decorating in my bathroom and bedroom…pretty much have all my wall decor up now. But still, when I go shopping, I find new ideas…ahhhhh, and I don’t need any more stuff or I won’t have any place to put it!!! I guess I need to practice what they call spending my money wisely a little more.

I’ve enjoyed several outings with some friends from church this past week. Sunday evening, Jennifer and I sent nearly three hours at Lake Hefner…watching the breathtaking sunset while having a picnic, playing some random games, and chatting. We even dipped our feet in the water and walked along the lake…pretending we were at the beach! We had a really fun time. But before we knew it, the sun had set and it was dark outside. That was our cue to pack up and head back to the apartment. I think we could have stayed out there all night…it was such a beautiful quiet night. Probably not the safest or smartest thing to do though…so we didn’t! 🙂

Saturday evening, I played some tennis with some friends. Although I’ve never played much tennis…maybe only once or twice in fact, it’s been a sport that I always thought would be fun to get good at. We had a really good time, got some really good practice, and I even surprised myself a few times. It was quite humid and warm though so we journeyed to a Jamba Juice for smoothies to cool off after the workout!

The past couple of Sunday’s, I have been attending Quail Springs Baptist Church. Besides the convenient location (it is only like 2 blocks from our apartment), I like it because it appears to be more conservative than some of the other churches I have visited. The pastor is going through the book of James right now in his sermons…discussing what it means to live out loud the life of faith. I’ve also really enjoyed the Sunday School class that is studying ‘trusting God.’ It is challenging, thought-provoking, and encouraging. I look forward to the Sunday’s ahead and what God is going to teach me!

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Tough decisions

Hey guys! Yah, I know! I’m a slacker…in the blogging sphere again. oops! I can’t believe it’s July already and that means several things…good and bad. First off, that means that my weeks of orientation at work (when I’m paired with another nurse) are just about to end and I’m gonna be ON MY OWN! That’ scary but I know it will be okay. It also means that in a week I will be living the night life in the city. Literally. July 16th I hit the night shift. *sigh* On the rather sad side, July means that camp is here and I’m missing it. Good News Camp that I have attended for the past 11 years is happening this week and the next and I’M NOT THERE!!! AHHHH…it’s tearing me apart!!! Yet, I wouldn’t trade moving here to the city and my new job for anything, not even camp. But I’m missing it awfully much. Miss the people, the good times, the laughter, the sleepless nights, the campers, EVERYTHING! Serena better bring back lots of pictures of lots of stories! 🙂

This past weekend were two very important events for our country and my life. Saturday was the 4th of July holiday and it was the day my dad was born. It is the day we celebrate the freedom we have in the United States, most of all the freedom to worship the Lord Jesus Christ. And it is also the day that the most important man in my life right now came into the world…MY DAD! So…in celebration of the two events and seeing that I had off of work for 5 days over the weekend, I went back home to the country Friday and surprised my Dad! Serena had homemade ice cream and German Chocolate Cake waiting (she knew I was coming but Dad had NO idea!) for my arrival. It totally took Dad my surprise and his smile was priceless. It was fun! Then of course while I was home, I had to spend some time (actually a great deal of time) in Meade catching up with friends from my ‘old’ job. Even attended a wedding Saturday evening and got to watch some fireworks! It was great…but by Sunday afternoon, I was ready for city life again! 🙂

I worked today and it was a very good learning experience. Every day, I’m learning more and more and doing things I’ve not done before. I love the challenge…and I think that’s one of the things that ‘bored’ me so much back in Meade…there was not much of a challenge anymore! I’ve encountered some tough issues at work involving medical decisions and it has made me ponder a lot. At what point do you let a baby go? Just because your baby is not going to be normal, do you take them off of life support….? Heart medications…? Do surgery to prolong a handicap life…? Each of these precious lives, not matter how ‘unnormal’ IS a gift from the Lord and is a life that God has created. So… it has made me ask myself, “what would Jesus do?” Something I should be asking every single day anyway but too often forget.

I still love the city and the job and am even considering continuing my education…at least getting my Bachelor’s degree and possibly becoming a nurse practitioner. Yah…never thought I would even think about school again! Briann and I are still church shopping so that is still a huge prayer request. We hope to find a church soon that we can call home. Patience…patience…patience!

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I LOVE IT!

Time is going by soooo fast here, I can’t keep up! My first days at work were terrific! Friday, the first day on the Neonatal ICU was wild and crazy and fast-paced but I learned sooo much and loved it! Being the weekend, Saturday and Sunday proved to be a little slower. I feel like God has already incredibly blessed me with some wonderful friends and co-workers on the unit. All the nurses are wonderful and the teamwork is fantastic! I couldn’t have asked for anything better. This IS a whole new world of nursing and I’m finding that I have to change my thinking a lot…I’m used to giving medications, treatments, etc. to adults in adult sizes and doses but that’s a bit much for these little ones. 🙂 So…it’s keeping me on my toes. But to sum up the new job experience in three words: I LOVE IT!

Now I’ve had off several days and one would think I would be bored…?! Nope! It seems I manage to stay busy and find something to do everyday whether it is shopping, hanging out with friends, visiting frozen yogurt places :), baking and cooking, tanning and swimming at the pool, working out, cleaning the apartment, decorating the apartment, and yes, getting on facebook or on the cell phone.

Monday, Briann and I FINALLY got our Oklahoma Driver’s licenses! WHEW! That was such a looong drawn out ordeal and I’m just glad to have it taken care of! I rode my bike around the city about 5-6 miles…it was a lot of fun! Then in the evening, Briann and I played volleyball with the Henderson Hills Baptist Church Singles group and had a really good time! Tuesday morning, I worked out in the fitness center and met the weirdo guy again… :/. Briann and I tanned at the pool for a couple of hours but it was SUPER hot! Our tans are impressive though…! And…I can’t really remember what we did the rest of the day….ummmm. Oh yeah, we made a Wal-Mart fun for some groceries, wrote our Father’s day cards, and completed some paperwork stuff for OU Medical Center and health insurance. Fun huh?! Not really…. Okay, today we went shopping for some living room apartment decor and found a few things but nothing real spectacular yet. 😦 We were at the pool tanning again for about an hour today but it was so hot that we didn’t stay out long.

For the past two days, we have wanted to take out our bikes and ride around Lake Hefner…but it has been horribly windy! *bummer* But…we’ve decided that tomorrow morning, whether wind, hail, or tornado…we’re going to the lake!!! 🙂 Hopefully, it will be nice.

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A bit of it all…

I should have blogged before now I know. It’s been like a week and a half. I guess I have been out of the ‘blogging mode’…but I’m getting back into it now, I think…I hope. 🙂 Does the fact that my last paycheck has over 100 hours on it count for anything?

Although I have been working a lot and although it’s been super busy and crazy, I love it. I love my co-workers. I love my patients (most of them anyway…). I love feeling needed. I love being able to help others. I love the challenges that the medical field brings. I love nursing. I’m so glad to be a nurse and wouldn’t change it for the world.

Krissa just returned back home yesterday from spending several days apartment shopping in Lexington, Kentucky. I do believe she found a very nice apartment and is really looking forward to moving down next week, getting settled, and starting her new job. Being jobless and moneyless isn’t very fun for very long! I think she will do well and sometime in the near future, I’ll have to make a trip and visit her. I do think that OKC would be a few hours closer to Lexington than Ensign. 🙂

My moving plans are coming along. But I’m so confused about furniture…what brand, what company, what style, what color?? There are simply too many choices out there and it has my mind boggling! Bleh! I’m so indecisive anyway and the more I look the more confused I get! Most of my furniture buying anyway will be in May after I’ve relocated to OKC…but I want some kind of idea of what I want. But as of now…I haven’t a clue!

I’m still waiting to receive my OK nuring license in the mail. Thank goodness that my background check came back saying “no records found.” 🙂 Whew! I sent in the large stack of paperwork for licensure endorsement a few weeks ago. I’m just anxious to actually see my OK license and hold it in my hand!

Next week, Monday through Wednesday, I’ll be in the big city for interviews. YAY! I’m so nervous and so excited at the same time! Briann already accepted a job offer in the Pediatric ICU at Children’s OU Hospital. So…if I don’t get a job, I told her she would have to support me for a while! 😉

The kittens are getting so big but they are still so much fun. Very playful and full of energy. I think they drive their mother crazy sometimes! They are about eight weeks old now…so we have to think about giving up two of them. 😦 Sniffle…sniffle. We are planning to keep one…Snickers or Reeses or Scamper…we can’t decide. Scamper is the only girl. But Reeses is my favorite…he is super sweet and looks like a fluffy teddy bear! We already have homes for whichever two we decide to part with…sadness.

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What’s new?

Well, since this blogging post is way overdue…there is quite a lot that is new around here. First of all, the weather has been amazingly beautiful and almost 70 degrees today! We did have a really cold snap last weekend but only for a couple of days. This is soooo odd for January but perhaps the blizzards and snowstorms and frigid temperatures are waiting for February or March. YIKES! Or maybe…just maybe…the snow and ice is going to stay in hibernation this winter. I can only hope! 🙂

In other news, Krissa is home now for a while looking for a job. She has had several interviews mostly via the phone for possible opportunities with some newspapers…even on all the way in California! But nothing is definite and right now, she isn’t finding anything that she really REALLY likes and would want to do long term. Hopefully the economy with pick back up soon and my sister will still become a famous world traveling journalist for some big important magazine company!!! LOL!

The three adorable kittens are growing like crazy! The are getting more fun by the day. With their eyes open now, they are getting much more brave and waddeling out of their ‘bed’ and trying to scamper about. Skittles is still quite protective and doesn’t like it much when Krissa or I play with her kittens…sometimes she gets downright mad! Serena’s the only one with special privileges who can do anything with her kittens.

I have some really exciting news!!!! The NICU job prospects in Oklahoma City are looking grand!! I have been able to visit with the NICU nurse recruiters for Children’s OU Hospital, Mercy Hospital, and Integris Baptist Hospital this past week and am working on setting up interviews for spring break week. And the really good news is that Mercy is expanding their NICU by 14 beds this Summer/Fall and so they for sure will be hiring more RN’s. YAY!!! Mercy would probably be my first pick anyway so I’m pretty much on CLOUD 9!! The apartment search is going great too…Briann and I have several more complexes that we want to further investigate. So…hopefully in the next week or two, I will be running to OKC again!

I am enjoying Krissa being home now for a while and getting to hang out with her! Although…three girls sharing ONE bathroom is proving interesting sometimes. Especially like Sunday mornings when we are all at home and it’s my weekend off! AHHHH! Sometimes I think a schedule with time limits is needed! I’m just glad that Dad has his own bathroom or he’d never get a turn! 😉

Work has remained pretty steady with it’s up’s and down’s. I worked yesterday in the hospital Pharmacy and am working this weekend. It was rather busy today…but I’m hoping for a less stressful day tomorrow.

Wednesday and Thursday nights this week, I stayed the night with our neighbor girls plus their two annoying toy poodles who want to snuggle in bed or lick my face (yuck!) and another two huge dogs that bark all night…and cats galore! I love cats and dogs…but in moderation please! So needless to say, I did NOT attain much sleep! I was glad to be back in my own bed last night.

Thursday, Krissa and I spent most of the day shopping around in Garden City. Krissa wants to re-decorate and make one of the upstaires bedrooms into a guest room. She has some terrific ideas and we had fun looking at furniture and decor and color shemes. Unfortunately…Dad has a budget that we must adhere to! I think a trip to Wichita is in order sometime in the near future…just the three of us girls!

I’m trying to write more often and keep you all in the loop! I need to post some more from my journal on the book study of “Let Me Be A Woman”…hopefully I’ll get that accomplished this next week! Hannah and I have kept up the study…I just haven’t been faithful to post it on here….oops!

Oh oh OH…how could I forget…Fireproof came out on DVD this week so Krissa and I picked it up in Garden City. Unfortunately with my work schedule we haven’t had a change to watch it again yet…but soon. I can’t wait!

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If you had it to do over, would you become a nurse?

This question was asked in the March issue of the RN magazine. And responses varied from “I would certainly pursue a career in nursing” to “no, I would not.” I didn’t have to give the question much thought. The answer is pretty simple…YES, I WOULD! Sure, there have been those horrifically long hectic days when I began to wonder about my career choice…but ultimately I love my job and I love nursing. Why do I love nursing so much…? Here’s just a few of the many reasons.

  1. I ♥ the opportunity to take care of other people, strangers or those that I know.
  2. I ♥ the adrenaline rush when a critical patient comes into the emergency room or when the “CODE BLUE” light goes off.
  3. I ♥ being able to visit with patients one on one and get to know them as a person, not just as a patient.
  4. I ♥ being able to put a smile on a sick kid’s face…even if it is just because I gave them a sucker or a SpongeBob bandaid.
  5. I ♥ being able to share in both the joy and the pain in the lives of others.
  6. I ♥ being that ‘beakon of hope’ to someone who may have no one else.
  7. I ♥ to impart the knowledge I have learned through the medical field to my patients and their families.
  8. I ♥ to be apart of someone’s last days in this life.
  9. I ♥ giving and receiving hugs to sweet old ladies who want to be in the hospital just so they don’t have to be home alone.
  10. I ♥ joking and laughing with my patients.
  11. I ♥ answering a call light and being able to ask, “how can I help you?”
  12. I ♥ earning the trust of my patients.
  13. I ♥ being an advocate for my patients, even if it does ‘rock the boat.’
  14. I ♥ walking into my patient’s rooms in the morning and saying “Good morning. My name is Jena and I will be your nurse today.”
  15. I ♥ to hear my patient say, “I’m ready to go home to be with Jesus.” 
  16. I ♥ to give comfort to a frightened patient or family member.
  17. I ♥ to read Scripture or pray or sing hymns with my patient, whose world seems to be falling apart.
  18. I ♥ to be able to make a difference in someone else’s life, even if it is in the smallest way.
  19. I ♥ to show the love and compassion of Jesus for my patients through the things that I do and say.
  20. I ♥ to serve my patients.
  21. I ♥ opportunities when I can share the Gospel of Jesus Christ with my patients.
  22. I ♥ to be apart of my patient’s world, even if they do think that the maintenance man is under their bed or they call the Sheriff’s office because they think that I’m poisoning them.  😉 (yes! it’s true!)
  23. I ♥ even the rough days when I could pull my hair out, because that is when I learn to be patient, courageous, honest, kind, loving, gentle, compassionate, responsible, unselfish, cheerful, friendly…and all those things that I want to be every single day that I am a nurse.

Why 23 reasons? Well, actually the list grows each day and could go on forever…but these were some of the first things that came to my mind. Don’t you want to be a nurse too?

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