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Briann’s little graduation surprise…

Briann had a nice little surprise in her room of the apartment after she graduated! I wanted to do something meaningful…something she would never forget! 🙂 Afterall, for both of us, this is the beginning of a new life and a great adventure. I think the pictures pretty much tell the story….




IMG_4848Diet Mt. Dew looks real…huh? 🙂



IMG_4866Don’t worry…it really was edible…


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My job…

Yesterday and today I worked. It was busy, crazy, hectic, and wild! AHHH! Glad the two days are history. I must say that I was alarmingly surprised at how slow the days went despite how busy it was! Somehow, I manage to find some highlights and joy in the days that even I get frustrated and irritated because I feel ‘over-demanded.’ So many times today, I felt like there needed to be two of me! But nope! There wasn’t…so I set priorities and be the best nurse I possibly can. 🙂 With the Lord’s gracious support and joy even in the midst of a cluster of activity and chaos, I think I managed to be a good nurse.

I’m finding myself really enjoying work these last months before I leave for OKC in May. As I contemplate moving and continue to make plans, I am SUPER DUPER excited…but sad that I’m leaving Meade. The Hospital in this little town has become so much like home to me. My co-workers and friends have been amazing, supportive of me through the tough times, and fun! The times we’ve shared whether at work or outside of work have been priceless. All the memories, the jokes, the hugs, the smiles, and the secret pals will NEVER be forgotten! I love you guys more than you will ever know!

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Christmas in OKC!

Okay…so as most of you know, I’ve spent nearly the entire past week in Oklahoma. One of my girlfriends from Meade is attending Oklahoma Baptist University (located in Shawnee, about 30 minutes from OKC) with a major in nursing! YAY! She will be graduating in May and is pretty sure she will stay in the OKC area…and is wanting a roommate…. So I went down there for several reasons…one, to spend some fun time with Briann; and two, to look into apartments and hospital job opportunities in northern OKC. Yes, I am seriously thinking about moving down there with her after she graduates. I would love the thrilling opportunity to work in a far larger hospital than Meade and have always dreamed of working in a NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit). Plus, it would be fun for Bri and I to have our own little apartment. =)

But I haven’t decided for sure because there are some other things to consider…and not just packing up my bags right away and moving to the big city! I’m sure I would not have the flexibility or freedom of getting off work or trading with co-workers as I do in our little hospital. Plus, I would have to apply for an RN license in Oklahoma (which shouldn’t prove to be a huge deal…thank goodness!) I’m sure I would miss knowing all my co-workers and even some patients personally. I wonder how I would keep up with my piano playing as we certainly wouldn’t have a piano in the apartment. I might just have to invest in a large keyboard. 😉 But also…there’s the issue of moving out out the house and living ‘on my own.’ I’m sure I would develop a lot of independence and more of a ‘career woman’ mentality. And perhaps that is not all bad…but my ultimate goal is to be married and raise up a new generation of children who desire to serve and honor the Lord! Now would be the time for me to get experience elsewhere though, while I’m yet single! So…I’m still praying about it!

OKC was grand! Briann and I had a wonderful time enjoying the big city life! We literally shopped…and shopped…and shopped until we dropped. By Friday, we desperately needed to go home…or we would be having some issues with the credit card companies! YIKES! But they had such great sales! New York and Co. was awesome…I LUV that store! We spend waaaaay too much time in there Wednesday and then we even had to go back on Thursday, when they had even better sales! We did most of our shopping at the Penn Square Mall…but also visited Old Navy and Bed, Bath, and Beyond.

Wednesday evening, we dressed up went down to Bricktown and ate at Zio’s Italian Restaurant. It was quite lovely with amazing service. We certainly enjoyed the girls night out! After dinner, we walked around downtown…for only a short while though as it was very nippy outside and we were wearing dressy attire with heels! The city lights were beautiful! Thursday, after shopping, we went ice skating at Devon’s outdoor ice rink. At first, it was a bit chilly…but we quickly warmed up, especially with our hats and scarfs! It was super fun and we didn’t even fall! 😉 Also that evening, we spent more time walking around Bricktown and walking through the Myriad Botanical Gardens which were all lit up for the holiday season! It was very pretty.

Friday, we went shopping again…but a different kind of shopping. APARTMENT SHOPPING! We looked at about four apartment complexes in northern OKC…and managed to find one that we really liked. And it’s affordable too and has pretty much everything we would want. And I absolutely love the fact that all of the complexes are located around a huge golf course! No…I don’t care an ounce about the golf. But, there is so much outdoor space to work out jogging or running! The entire area is gated so I would feel pretty safe running on the grounds. 🙂


Briann and I


at Zio’s Italian Restaurant in Bricktown




at the Myriad Gardens


after our scarf shopping spree!

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24 years ago…

November 6th, 1984, I, Jena Renae Smith, was born into this world. November 6th, 1984, life as I knew it in the womb was changed forever. November 6th, 1984, I was a precious human life that had been spared from abortion because my parents ‘chose life.’ November 6th, 1984, my parents met their second daughter for the first time face to face. November 6th, 1984, God had given my Mom and Dad a gift in the form of a 7# 4.5 oz and 18.5 inches long healthy baby girl. November 6th, 1984, was the consummation of God’s handiwork as He had made me “fearfully and wonderfully.”

But even more significant than November 6th, 1984, were the 9 months prior when the great Creator was molding me, shaping me, and perfecting me to be exactly who He wanted me to be. Every physical feature, every personality trait, every tiny little thing about me He designed…so delicately, so beautifully, so intricately. All the days of my life were being planned out even before I was one day old. Psalm 139, written by David, is most certainly fitting to post on such a day as today…

1 O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
 2 You know my sitting down and my rising up;
         You understand my thought afar off.
 3 You comprehend my path and my lying down,
         And are acquainted with all my ways.
 4 For there is not a word on my tongue,
         But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
 5 You have hedged me behind and before,
         And laid Your hand upon me.
 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
         It is high, I cannot attain it.
 7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
         Or where can I flee from Your presence?
 8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
         If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
 9 If I take the wings of the morning,
         And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
 10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
         And Your right hand shall hold me.
 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall on me,”
         Even the night shall be light about me;
 12 Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
         But the night shines as the day;
         The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
 13 For You formed my inward parts;
         You covered me in my mother’s womb.
 14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
         Marvelous are Your works,
         And that my soul knows very well.
 15 My frame was not hidden from You,
         When I was made in secret,
         And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
 16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
         And in Your book they all were written,
         The days fashioned for me,
         When as yet there were none of them.
 17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
         How great is the sum of them!
 18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
         When I awake, I am still with You.
 19 Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
         Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
 20 For they speak against You wickedly;
         Your enemies take Your name in vain.
 21 Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You?
         And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
 22 I hate them with perfect hatred;
         I count them my enemies.
 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
         Try me, and know my anxieties;
 24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
         And lead me in the way everlasting.

And to this day, 24 years later, God is still molding me into who He wants me to be.  

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When I Said Goodbye

Yesterday was the 2-year anniversary of my dear Mother’s reunion with Jesus Christ Himself. I love her and miss her very much and always will. But God has continued to prove Himself so very faithful. He gives me grace for every moment and the strength I need to go on. I worked yesterday and my co-workers were such an encouragement and support to me…even admist the many tears that I shed. One of my dearest co-workers and friend even sent me a beautiful bouquet of six red roses and one white one. I was overwhelmed with her incredible care and love for me! THANK-YOU VIVIAN! Last year, I wrote a poem in memory of my Mom and I thought if fitting to post it on my blog again this year. (Be sure to have some tissues ready…)


When I Said Goodbye

When I said goodbye,

I knew this was not the end.

My mom believed that Jesus did die

For her sins to make amend.


In heaven a place

was prepared just for her;

Where she’s face to face

With her Savior for sure.


When I said goodbye,

I knew she was free of pain.

Many tears I did cry,

But for her, to die was gain.


For now she was free

To laugh and to smile;

Full of joy as could be;

Far beyond a little while.


When I said goodbye,

I knew she was walking streets of gold,

For God’s promises are not a lie

And He will do as He has foretold.


Her home no longer here,

But in a mansion up above;

As Jesus holds her near,

And gives of His great love.


When I said goodbye,

I knew I must let go;

Even though I wonder why,

God says that’s not for me to know.


Her work on earth was done.

She fought the good fight;

And the battle she won,

As she’d been given true sight.


When I said goodbye,

I knew she was living more;

For in the blink of an eye,

She passed through heaven’s door.


How much I wish to hear

Her voice just once again;

Or to watch a tiny tear,

Fall gently from her chin.


When I said goodbye,

I knew the memories I would hold;

For they will never die;

Nor will they ever grow old.


I cherish each moment;

Each hug and each kiss,

With her that I spent;

For that is what I miss.


When I said goodbye,

I knew not how hard it would be.

Some days can only bring a sigh;

But that’s when I fall down to my knee.


Sometimes I don’t feel

I can make it through another day;

My broken heart, God will heal,

But it takes time, He will say.


When I said goodbye,

I knew this was just a part

Of His perfect plan up on high;

But still was the ache in my heart.


I wanted to revise

This chapter in the book.

But knew God to be more wise,

And my best He wouldn’t overlook.


When I said goodbye,

I knew my heart could go on;

For His compassion is so very nigh;

And His mercy is never gone.


Although my dreams seem to fade,

As I live this life without her.

Each new day, He has made,

And in His loving arms, I am forever.


When I said goodbye,

I knew that I could soar.

He would give me wings to fly,

And I wouldn’t need anything more.


For through my sadness,

I’ve learned to be glad;

And to trust in nothing less,

Than the great God that I’ve had.


~Written by Jena R. Smith in loving memory of her Mom

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